Tuesday 19 February 2008

Superficial Symbol of a satisfied soul...



He looks at me and asks me to smile. I smile faintly focusing only on the camera, trying to escape his gaze. He clicks…once, twice, thrice… my heart feels fraught with feelings unknown. My eyes heavy with insomnia blink insignificantly. My face betrays my emotions. The camera captures those unseen, unobserved emotions. He paints me into life through the pictures he takes yet I feel forlorn. How much I love him even I cannot say. How much he loves me, I am totally unaware of. He knows everything. I know everything yet we are together. He knows I love him truly. He loads the photographs on his computer and smiles as he holds my hand. I hug him tightly and cry over his shoulder. He runs his fingers through my hair and caresses me gently. He holds me by the shoulders and looks at my face smothered with tears. I look at him, his eyes enigmatic and full of questions. I fail to understand him yet again! Shadows overshadow my thoughts as I close my eyes. The saturation freezes into stubborn sorrow. I ask him, “Do I have to leave now?” He turns away and says nothing. He sits down and shows me my photographs. I scan through them and appreciate his ability to transform me completely. He kisses me on my forehead. I ask him, “Will you never love me… just because… we can never …” my voice breaks and I sob silently. He says nothing. I feel hurt and want to leave immediately. I get up and turn to go. I go towards the door; he holds me by my hand, stops me and says “Don’t go. Please.” We hug each other and cry silently in each other’s arms. I wish we could always be together.
Why is he a Muslim and me a Hindu? Why am I not some Shazia and he some Aditya? Why is the society so superficial? We all are the superficial symbols of a satisfied soul. Are we really satisfied? Are we happy? The society builds laws and ideals for everyone and discriminates one religion from another just because maybe I don’t wear a burkha and some other person does not worship idols. God is universal. I say Shiva is my God, because Jesus and Allah are your Gods, isn’t it? How is it possible? Only because cultures differ how one religion can be deemed as superior to another? This is an abyss of faithlessness and can lead only to misery and hatred. And we are the victims, the ones who love are looked upon as vermin; the one who create hatred are considered powerful and God-like. This is the society we are a part of… created by us as our utopia.

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13 comments/suggestions:

sudeepverma said...

Are Ladki kya likhti hai tu...sach mein tune to bas ehhhhhhh......u made my eyes with tears.....i just imagined the whole situation .....
Really u creates wonders with words n i m damn sure i m true with my words.........

Unknown said...

hi anukriti
first thing which i noticed in ur blog- ur impeccable writing skill. i appreciate ur endeavour but i dont concur with ur ideas fully.
u tried to compare love n relegion, to be more specific...its not relegion instead fundamentalism which divides. so u cant blame any religion whether its Islam or Hinduism. they all r beneficial 4 the humankind.
if u need to compare than compare the freedom u get in the most democratic form of religion being practiced in india n others. wish u get ur love ...as i think right to choose is of utmost importance.
anand p singh

Unknown said...

jus love ur ability 2 create magic wid words.. have sthng imp 2 say bt rite nw am too busy thnking.... mayb in a few days....

vaibhav said...

u have a flawless writing ability... and the intimate scenes r sure to touch each eart that has loved and lost in life ... seriously i could totally relate to it... keep up he good job

Anurag said...

hey
what u wrote was amazingly beautiful...and also sadly so true in today's context

its a question of priorities isnt it...if the two people love each other so much that they would go ahead against the social norms n be together...thats it

but then if social norms are more important...then again thats it...end of story

keep posting...
adios
anurag

Anonymous said...

Splendid write up..

Amazing visualization of a touchy relationship.

Not so important yet an sensitive point touched upon.Society cant be ignored nor ride your feeling.

Great post
Looking for more .. :)

cya
GP

PS:came here through your orkut profile

here is mine:
http://www.orkut.com/Profile.aspx?uid=18393467649088142503

mayuri said...

My heart pines for a second while I can write something...it cries with pain and yearns for an endeavor to remarkable turn everything into a bright sunshine for you....I would not try to immaculate and say that I can feel what you are going through but yes, I can feel you writhing with pain...do not...please do not....life is more than pains...and a damsel like you deserves smiles and happiness....take care sweetie

sahil said...

hey anukriti ..u rocks buddy...nice one..keep going on...

Anonymous said...

The omnipresent Hindu-Muslim love story.
But written beautifully to hold anyone's heart. I guess the incidents are all true......only then can such depths of emotion overflow from a blogger?

Anonymous said...

Excellent thoughts and well said. Keep it up.

MicroCosm said...

Saleem Sharma.. Dats Me For Real :)
AS I read it.. It pains to imagine hw it hapnd.. to do the most difficult thing of all..To Let Go!
Hope words cud heal wat Love and moreso love in d time of despair Inflicts..
Here's a wish frm an imaginary frnd to anothr.. Hope u get wat U wish For

Anonymous said...

a little more sex and u could have been writing a porn book... seems like u are a professional.. u know where to draw the line... good work... m a fan of urs.. when u publish ur first book.. i'll be there to buy an autographed one

Anonymous said...

absolutely superb and mind blowing... thats all i can say.. i dont have words how i was feeling while reading this article.. really fantastic!!